I have too many books. I just got back from the library and I can already tell that I have too many books. Also some books that I bought just arrived today. I know I have too many books because I can look at the stack of them and see which ones I will not read before they are due back at the library. It’s too overwhelming, this book stash of mine.
And I haven’t fully worked out how this is related to money, but I can feel that it is because it is related to wanting and to possession. I learn about a book, and I’m intrigued by it. I check it out (or if I’m really interested and it isn’t at the library, I buy it). But I haven’t finished reading the books that I’ve already checked out that interest me. And it is easy to request books: just a click of a button. It’s easy to get in over my head, and fortunately, the consequences are low when they’re library books, though the librarian today did ask me if I knew about my fines. I do.
There are more books that I want to read than I have the time or endurance to read, even if I were to spend the rest of my life only reading. And one book leads to another book in a villainous cycle. Then I am disappointed when I return a book, overdue and unread to the library.
The problem is one of contentment and pacing. A solution to this problem might be to read the books that I have in the apartment before finding new ones to read at the library, or as is more often the case, on the internet. A solution might be to check out only one book at a time, instead of four at a time, with two still at home waiting to be read. Please note that I said these might be a solution, not that these would be my solutions. I am still denying that this is really a problem.
Books I’ve Checked Out and Not Read Yet:
Lost Girls: An Unsolved American Mystery
Lost Cat: A True Story of Love, Desperation and GPS Technology
Still Writing: The Perils and Pleasures of a Creative Life
Odd Type Writers
The War of Art
Books I’ve Bought or Received, and Not Read Yet (this year):
As They Were
The Art of Non-Conformity
Books I am Actually Reading Right Now:
How to Suppress Women’s Writing
Thinking, Fast and Slow